Just some random musings...

I feel like I am coming to a cross road in my life. I feel like I am about to be radically changed and I don't feel prepared. So a lot of feeling for me. Here is an update on my current life and prospects for the future.
I'm in my 5th year of college.
I should be graduating may 2012 with a B.S. in Human development and family studies.
Yes I realize it is taking me 6 years to complete a 4 year degree.
I changed my major 3 times went part time for two semesters and took a semester off.
I was changed radically my second year in college when I allowed Jesus to take over my life.
I have a passion and heart for children
I am a woman and proud, and slightly traditional in my values
Sam, my friend calls me a puritan due to my slight conservative morals and ideas.
I want to be involved with children that have different disabilities.
I want to be a foster parent along with maybe work in the area of adoption
this past summer I was enlightened to ASL and the Deaf World, my life will never be the same.
I have a heart for deaf children and their education and language. my current view is that deaf children need to have their language (ASL) and also written English so that they can have and obtain a good education. There is a lot more to this to but I am not going into it.
I am going to be volunteering at the Indiana school for the deaf. more details when I have them.
I am going to Gallaudet this summer to take a few ASL classes.
Potentially I am attending graduate school at Gallaudet for social work.
well that is all for now. I pretty much summarized everything that has been buzzing around my head today.

a new experience...

Yesterday I started not feeling that great. Well my ears and my throat hurt. I woke up this morning and I didn't have a voice to mention of and my ears still hurt only to find out when I got on the bus that it is incredibly hard to understand anyone unless they are talking directly to my face in a mostly quiet room and it is useful to have eye contact. yeah. sooooo.... the day progressed and my voice improved and well I still can't hear the best. but now my voice has gone again and my ears are still hurting but there is a new symptom on the list... my chest feels tight and I have this lovely cough that sounds like I have been smoking my whole life. yeah it is funny. I feel well other than the whole no voice or ability to understand anyone clearly. and the cough...
Funny story or two from today.
First I had a chemestry exam and I never realized how much people talk in that class I seriously almost got my exam taken away because I didn't hear/understand the prof tell the class not to turn over the exam and then didn't understand when she was trying to get me to flip it back... ahh the confusion was interesting and people stared until I explained that I couldn't really understand what she was saying so it was hard to know what I was supposed to be doing.
Second, Seth and I went to Nashville to enjoy the lovely fall weather and different activities. We stopped for ice cream and I went in to order. I must have been mumbling or not understood what the guy had asked my because the two different orders I ordered ended up together and then he didn't understand why I was asking for an extra bowl and spoon (so I could separate the two kinds of ice cream) hey the ice cream was really good too! How I love persimmon ice cream.
yeah so if either of the two situations described above gave me any insight to what it would be like to be hard of hearing or deaf... man I don't know how some deal with stupid hearing people and not hurt them lol I am just kidding, well sort of, if was kind of frustrating and embarrassing in class.